Caravanlife #6.0, 12metriquadrati

As I type this, I have one eye laughing and one eye crying!

The wonderful year is slowly coming to an end, and hopefully we have mastered the 12metriquadrati challenge. What do I mean by that?

There have been ups and downs, and I see these as factors that are beyond my control. I am referring to the accident and its consequences, the standstill in Spain and now the uncertainty that Christian in particular is always facing, as to whether Palumbi will make it or not.

It is his worries that often keep him quiet, and he can only share them with me after I have asked him several times, because he doesn't want to burden me. I can understand this thought, but I can't really relate to it, because I have complete faith in Palumbi, he will get us home!

Of course, this sometimes leads to tensions, which we hope to address differently now than we did 10 months ago. We have learned that you can't just bottle everything up, but rather talk things out and clear up any ambiguities, etc. Often it's just small misunderstandings that can be quickly resolved with a conversation.

I still meditate every day, but unfortunately daily yoga isn't working so well at the moment, for several reasons:

I have started an Ayurveda treatment, which, in addition to strict requirements, also suggests other times for yoga, which do not suit me at all at the moment, because either directly after waking up or directly before going to bed does not suit me well. (The funny thing is that this would not be a problem at home, because I have a solid roof, the space, etc.) On top of that, I need the internet here, because I am supposed to do special yoga that I have never done before....

I haven't found the right process yet, but I'm working on it.

Why did I go to an Ayurvedic doctor? It's simple. My body showed me that the things I was working through were good mentally, but there was still so much backed up in my intestines that I was literally eating it up. From March onwards, despite a strict diet, no alcohol, and lots of exercise, I continued to gain weight. On top of that, there was irritation around my mouth that just wouldn't go away.

NOW, of course, everything is not better, my weight still needs attention, but the detoxification of my intestines has made my irritated mouth look better. A holistic approach was important to me here, and it seems to be working!

I will bring many things home with me from the sabbatical year, not only material things, but also what we have learned in the last few months.

1. You should always be helpful because you may need help too.
2. Tolerance everywhere, if possible and personal freedom is not affected.
3. Getting upset won't change anything! (That's my sticking point!)

I have adopted a few rules from a book by don Miguel Ruiz that I want to continue to follow; they are things that don't work overnight, but that you can gradually integrate into your everyday life.

• always be inviolable with your words
• Do not make assumptions, do not speculate about others
• don't take anything personally
• always try to do your best

This is now my daily journey, I am always working on it, but there is always room for improvement.

I will bring everything into the new/old everyday life, because I don't want to limit the results of my development to this sabbatical year!

One thing has now changed for the better for me, because I'm getting a new place of work, so it's a real new beginning!