Amnesia

You forget people quicker than you think. It sounds sad, it's sad, but after a few weeks or months, you start to think less and less about people who played a huge role at home. You forget to contact them and after several weeks you suddenly remember that this person exists. It always hurts. You swore to keep in touch, you were so sure that nothing would change. But life somehow gets in the way. At the same time, however, there are also people with whom you notice that the contact comes naturally. You notice who is important enough to maintain contact. And then there are those with whom you don't communicate much, but with whom you know that everything will be the same as before when we are back in the same place. Nevertheless, it is frightening what a few thousand kilometers of spatial distance, a 7-hour time difference and completely different everyday lives can do to relationships. Sometimes I remember moments when these people felt so close. In which I knew that this person knows me and loves me and I just the same. But time can do so much to us. Forever should never be promised. Some of these people feel very far away. Spatially they are, of course, but also emotionally. And yet I still love all of these people immensely. But how can someone feel so alien after just 4 months? I notice that there are relationships that are beautiful and valuable, but that are based more on physical proximity and a shared everyday life. And then there are emotional connections so deep that no number of oceans could break between them. The ones where there's no shortage of topics to talk about, even though the other person doesn't know any of the people you spend time with and you genuinely care about what's going on in their lives. Not all friendships can be like that. I don't think that much time and emotional capacity is humanly possible. Interpersonal relationships are complex and cannot be measured by how much contact you have with each other when you do not live in the same country. Some people are not so good at keeping in touch, and yet that friendship can be worth more than the one with someone I communicate with every few days. What I mean by that is actually nothing, it was a spontaneous rant because I just shed 1-2 tears when I saw a picture of a friend. I love you all babies <3