Foillsichte: 03.11.2023
Here's a little update after a good 3 months in Palumbi. Our caravan has now been converted so well by Christian that after a bumpy ride we can no longer find the cupboard or the upper cupboards on the floor. He does it brilliantly and with a lot of foresight; he has even managed to stop our kitchen from bulging outwards. There are small things that you can do here, because Palumbi is 50 years old, we know that he probably can't be with us forever.
Nevertheless, cheers to Palumbi, who also mastered the storm today, but we were not in the hurricane zone in Brittany, but "only" south of Toulouse with gusts of 80 km/h. We have now landed in Spain, in Rabos, near Figueres. It is beautiful here, we stand between cork oaks, olive groves and vineyards, we have a view of the Pyrenees and are at the Mediterranean in less than an hour.
Our host here is also extremely relaxed, we are traveling in the low season, in the high season you would pay less if you worked on the farm. A very interesting approach for me, which he pursues especially for children!
The journey in Palumbi opens spiritual horizons, now we have arrived in the 4th country and it is as exciting as the other countries before it.
I make no secret of the fact that rainy days in particular are not so easy in our 12 square meters, that hasn't necessarily changed. In the Bordelaise I discovered that you can take the pressure off if you coordinate better, perhaps taking turns walking the dogs so that you don't have to dry too many wet clothes in the caravan and thus cause unnecessary stress. Of course, agreements are just as important in other areas.
One thing I have also had to realize in the last few weeks is that I am often the trigger for discussions, because my past with all its problems and traumas sometimes catches up with me at the stupidest opportunities. There is still room for improvement in how I deal with shame. I've been working on myself more specifically for a few months, but now it's time for a new start!
I'm now trying to incorporate a routine into my daily routine that I can continue to stick to when this wonderful, exceptional year is over. I try to have at least two periods to myself every day in which I can concentrate on myself. Christian also takes time for himself, but fills it differently.
What exactly do I do alone in these two phases? It's hard to explain, I use this time for two things.
My best friend has been doing yoga for decades, I only started seriously 2 years ago. Sophie is an inspiration because she is so balanced and calm from what she has learned about yoga and the associated meditation (her statement!).
I think that these things are largely innate, but if you're honest, everyone can work on themselves. How great the success is always depends on the individual; it is also about consistency, discipline and seriousness.
SPOILER! My wonderful therapist, who I won't mention by name here, gave me the impulse to do yoga and meditation a few years ago, but I wasn't always consistent enough when I was stressed. I have the means in my own hands, I know what would help me, what is good for me. It's up to me to make these things happen!
The day now starts with meditation and continues with yoga. I have no more excuses because I can also see the effect!
Please don't get me wrong, I'm not an ultra-thin yoga mouse who touches her toes with her head, who lives a vegan life, etc., but I'm always a few kilos too heavy (my perception!), I'm certainly flexible, but I'm often at a loss I'm too impatient with myself when doing the exercises. I can't cheat when it comes to yoga, because my body shows me clearly whether the exercises are having an effect or not, because if I don't do it correctly, the relaxation won't last! Unless I seriously meditate and deal with my needs and especially emotions, I don't realize that my reactions subconsciously have to do with my past.
I'm like Palumbi, we're almost the same age, I just need attention and my wonderful husband always gives me that during the phases for myself.
Now I'm learning that I have to pay attention to myself much more often so that I can take a step back in certain situations and react differently. It is essential for the 12 metriquadrati that I do this, that I always communicate openly with Christian.
Yesterday I attended a yoga course with Sophie in Toulouse, which showed me that I am on the right path. Of course there were also some gazelles like Sophie, some ladies who are extremely agile. At first I was afraid that I would be the only non-gazelle giraffe.
BUT there were also ladies with strong physiques who worked just as seriously as the gazelles, as well as the apparent professionals who sometimes needed a helping hand from the teacher. We were all the same, and there's no point in making yoga a competition. Calmness and self-acceptance are much more important here!
Just as Palumbi slowly mastered the driveway today, I should also take small but consistent steps! THANK YOU PALUMBI FOR THIS TEACHING! ♥️