...The fear...

The fear is a dog.. it is coming over me regularly.. today it is very extreme again.

I can't really pinpoint what I'm so afraid of.. of the unknown.. of giving up all my securities.. that people there won't like me.. that I won't be able to handle all the organizing.. that it's really not long until departure.. and there are fewer and fewer days. I often wonder why I'm doing this?!

Movement helps! Today I rode my bike to the Pleschingersee and sat by the Danube.. it occurred to me again that this is exactly what I have to do.. even if I can't imagine what it will be like yet.. it will enrich me so much.. it will teach me so much that is important to me.. and it will help me rediscover my life.. expand my perspective.. I'm especially looking forward to that.

So conclusion of the day.. don't stress myself and be happy.. I will do my best!

-it's getting more active-