Being alone

Today I was at Juan Valdez with my girlfriend and we played this game with the 36 questions. It's still very unfamiliar to say 'my girlfriend'. We only met 3 weeks ago, but have spent every day together since then (except for 2 days). Anyway, we played this game from the New York Times where you're supposed to answer 36 questions that are supposedly very revealing about a person. One of them was how a perfect day would look like for you. The point where we mainly differed was that I wanted to meet as many people as possible on that day, and she said she could spend the day alone too. I always thought I was a person who could be alone well, but I think I'm just often alone. Or was I, because right now I'm almost always with her. Only in the evenings when she leaves, I'm alone again. And so often I don't know what to do with myself. So much so that sometimes I spend two hours switching between TikTok, Instagram, and Youtube. And I do it quite naturally. My evenings are reserved for social media. But I don't want that. How much more valuable could I use this time and how much more fulfilled could I feel if I used those two hours in the evening differently? I even feel like watching TV would be better use of time than Instagram and TikTok. Because I don't enjoy this time, it's really just light entertainment. I rarely even get myself to read in the evenings. But maybe I'm just a person who doesn't like being alone. That's my realization for today. And these questions are really not bad to get to know someone really well. By now we already know each other quite well for these 3 weeks, because sometimes we're really together for 24 hours straight, but at the same time it's only been 3 weeks. Which is very crazy, because it feels like so much more. I actually always thought I wasn't a relationship person, but maybe I am. Or maybe I wasn't and I have become one. I've heard that preferences and interests can change and develop over time. However, this relationship is currently questioning a lot about my future. Where do I want to live? The problem is, it's not about Berlin or Hamburg. It's about Germany or Colombia. But maybe that's a worry for another evening.

See you soon Ronaldo <3